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For What I Have Become
All my secrets buried deep within my skin
Don’t come too close to me, perspired are my sins
Cannot escape from this, my unearthly cage
I do love you but I can’t put you through this pain, again
To let you in I would not dare
It wasn’t anything that I could share
I’m sorry it ended so rough
Anything I did was never enough
I could no longer hide my shame
And from there it was never the same
How did you stand to be so near?
I would have banished me so long ago
Why you didn’t I will never know
I can still feel the soft caresses against my lips
I will remember every part of you, especially our last kiss
Please understand, I couldn’t go on with the lie
You will always be part of me, but eventually it just had to die
I loved that’s why I let you go
There are things you cannot know
It’s not that I didn’t care
I just didn’t think that it was fair
I’ve come to accept this as my fate
It was fear and never hate
I don’t deserve to have you here
I was gone so long ago
Long before I finally let you go
I am sitting here writing this letter to myself
It was meant for you, but it will remain on this shelf
Nothing more to explain what I’ve done
All you need to know is this darkness has finally won
So I break away against your will
Your eyes so cold, leaves such a chill
I know there’s nothing I can say
To make it all just go away
You will always be part of my soul
And I’ll keep the part of yours I stole
Please keep me as I used to be
Not of what I had later become
Please don’t see me for what I have become
