January 2012
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Decisions
My date was set months ago… the 2nd, the day I came into this world. It is fast approaching and I find myself reflecting on what had brought me here. It is not a story of fairy tales and happiness. It’s not a story you would read as a bedtime story unless the theme was horror. It’s a story that has yet to be told and quite honestly, I don’t think it ever will be. I had to live it, I was the...
December 2011
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It is better to be
in the embrace
of the creator
than to be
on this earth
suffering,
where you
no longer belong.
You have paid
your dues
and now it is time
to move on,
much deserved,
earned twofold.
Always loved,
never to be forgotten
and I understand
why you must leave us…
You have made
your mark in this world
and it’s now time
to make it
in the next.
I have no doubt you will
and will...
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I Believe
You may no longer be by our side No longer able to see your smile And the many tears we have cried Couldn’t you stay just a little while And with all my heart I truly believe…. I believe you’re dressed head to toe in ribbon and lace And looking down on us from up above I believe you have the biggest smile upon your face Beaming with an everlasting love I believe you know...
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Anger Within
Anger, misdirected, I know
but I really cannot help it right now
God knows I’ve tried.
I have felt it swelling within
like an unwanted gestation
coming close to its birth,
soon to rear its evil head.
Its maliciousness will be felt,
its strength known by few,
but will now be experienced by all.
Try to escape, if you can
I have tried and I suffered defeat
and this time dragged down
to its lair of...
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Sticks and stones can’t really compare
But it’s nothing that I really can share
I was beaten by the ghosts of my past
I am breaking, I can’t make it stop
Millions of pieces, like a glass dropped
Now trying to pick up the fine remnants
You can’t bleed what has already bled out
You can try if you really have doubt
But I am truly running on empty
Deceiving I know, but...
It was an extremely tough day, I couldn’t write worth shit even though my mind is running non stop, and it’s now 2am and I have to get up early tomorrow. Fun times to be had. Time to try to sleep and see if I can get a couple of hours at least. Bonne nuit à tous!
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I finally left the office at 9 pm and barely conscious, I headed for home. Once I arrived I stepped up onto the porch, unlocked the front door and was greeted by a dark, eerie silence… a typical welcome home. “I need to get a cat.” I mumbled to myself as I turned on the hall light and deposited my keys onto the side table. I headed upstairs, straight to my bedroom, and changed into my...
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I feel it,
it’s building again
fermenting
filling me to the brim,
about to erupt
and screaming to be released.
Felt it before,
but even more so
today
I want to let it escape,
to have it released
onto this ever maddening world.
Alas I cannot,
must keep it contained
within
it will continue to erode,
until nothing’s left
and all that remains is numbness.
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As I walk the lonely street,
on my way home this evening
I feel something fall against my cheek,
so gentle, barely there.
I look up and there’s another, and another,
dancing within the soft breeze
and soon I am surrounded,
I have nowhere to turn.
Enclosed in white
and within the cold I can feel the warmth
reminding me of a loving embrace,
kind of a reminder that I am not alone.
*Took this...
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3 o’clock in the morning
And I’m still waiting for the call
I guess you’re not coming home tonight
Writing’s on the wall
Already been down this road
It’s hardly anything new
Which is it this time
The blond or the brunette?
Don’t you worry, I will be just fine
Crying is already done
The door, all locked up
And I’m getting over you
Burned once, shame on you
Burned twice, now we’re...
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Anima Persa
Ciao. Hai perso la tua anima?
It has been a while,
since I last felt you.
Not sure how
I have survived till now.
But you are lost.
Come si fa a perdere l’anima?
You slipped away,
four years ago.
You had your fill,
and then you disappeared.
I’m not sure how.
Perché dovrei il vostro ritorno anima?
Because I feel empty
without you here.
Because I cannot feel
without your presence.
I just...
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Je t’aime, mon amour
Impossible, tu n’existes pas
Seulement dans mes rêves.
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Live!
Death, so overrated,
why do we fear it so?
Put in motion the moment we
took our first breath.
Takes over the moment we
take our last.
It keeps watch in between,
it’s the “thing” you think you always see
from the corner of your eye.
There’s no real way to prevent it,
avoid it, elude it, or negotiate with it…
So why not just accept it?
I can almost...
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It would appear as though
I can write about
almost anything. Hurt,
loneliness, rejection,
even death. The one thing
I cannot is
love.
As I sit here, about to
put pen to paper,
I pause. Blank,
without a thought,
writers block. Think
about despair, my mind revs
up, vomiting words quicker
than I can write them. But
love?
I find this very peculiar,
strange indeed as I am
rarely at a...
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Ignorance Is Bliss
Ignorance is bliss…
Says who?
So does that mean you can be excused
for such said ignorance?
Because you decided not to be informed,
it cannot be? Doesn’t exist?
Can’t be real, unfounded?
Makes it so (right or wrong)?
Ignorance is bliss…
Please tell,
who came up with such a saying?
Poet Thomas Gray in 1742,
to be exact,
and quite by mistake.
But was this his intended use of the phrase?
“It is...
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Weekly Rant: Ignorant
ig-no-rant
adj.
1. Lacking education or knowledge.
2. Showing or arising from a lack of education or knowledge: an ignorant mistake.
3. Unaware or uninformed.
(Courtesy of thefreedictionary.com)
I have decided that my topic of the week will be ignorance, seeing as how I am faced with it on a daily basis… professionally, personally, etc. And no, I am not talking about myself. If you ask me...
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Okay, I think I have gotten it out of my system, just as I have gotten past these last two days. I am going to try with everything I have in me to write more positively… you never know, it could happen! :)
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Walking this path for so long
honestly I have little faith
on earth to find where I belong
continuing to walk aimlessly
they say time is our friend
“give it a little time and you will see”
haven’t the strength to see it to the end
it is true, I have given up on me
Won’t tell the secrets of my heart
the wounds open up to easily
I can hear the whispers start
...
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Lying here
on this cold ceramic floor,
coiled up in disarray.
Are you watching me?
I’m in my darkest hour,
why aren’t you here with me?
Come closer, come lay down for a while,
until the shadows come to claim,
I need you here, here with me.
Despondent, how do I make it through?
I really hope you hear me…
the one who can save me.
Why is it so hard?
Please take me away
...
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In the dead of night I find myself walking through the freshly fallen snow… complete silence, solitaire and utterly serene. I’m in total darkness except for the new moon high above me, the ground beneath my feet sparkles and swirls, playfully in bluish hues. I look off into the distance and it reminds me of a blank canvas, waiting to be created, inviting. As I contemplate and try to imagine what...
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Believed
I saw the signs
but still I ignored
chose not to see
I was swept away
believing it to be real
I could not run
your boyish charm
your eyes so deep
pierced right through me
believing you to be real
Now here I am
battered and bruised
beyond repair
all because of you
believing us to be real
I was blind
to who you really were
and now my heart
is out of reach
because of the one...
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Little Girl
Little girl,
please don’t you cry
I will wipe away those tears
you’re not alone
Little girl,
feel your pain
but don’t let it rule you
learn to feel more
Little girl,
don’t forget the past
but you must move forward
need to learn how
Little girl,
learn to forgive
forgive but never to forget
what made you, you
Little girl,
you have survived
I know it doesn’t seem like it
but you’re still...
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I fight in defence silent words never heard I don’t know why a soul exists only to be stolen lost forever I fight for survival sanity saved or is it? I feel bitter cold what remains? here lies the truth anima persa
we are changing →
weswallowthesun:
we are changing
(can you feel it?)
like the wind
and like the river
ever tossing
(in the night)
never ceasing
to evolve
with dreams
and visions
and eyes
that search
for all
impossible things
i wish that i
could tell you
that i would
never leave you
but darling
(as you know)
that was never
my devotion
nor with you
my role to play
for we are growing up
so quickly
and so soon
so...
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Hear me, here once again I need to know when will it expire? Obviously wrong, with anything I have tried to do life in shambles, can’t turn it around Free me, from life’s lies can’t hold up anymore tired of the deception Distant laughter, why do you mock me, still? no longer will I be fooled to believe
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To whom it may concern: Please let these days pass quickly. It’s only purpose is to prove how alone I truly am. I don’t need a special day to remind me of this fact, it’s already known. Thank you for your consideration.
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Can you feel it?
The way you look at me, starts
something stirring
Feel the heat within, relentlessly
intensifying
Proceed with caution,...
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Daddy's Little Angel
Baby girl I can still remember That cold February day When you came into my life Much too early, unexpected How we prayed for a miracle Touch and go Countless sleepless nights And what seemed like eons Heaven finally heard me Finally answered my prayers Heavens angel he chose to share How I feared tomorrow would never come To have one more chance to hold you From the first day you...
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Life, like a candle
Can be snuffed at anytime
Guard the fragile flame
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I Am Me
I am me. I do not fit under what society categorizes as normal. I’m not the prettiest or the most popular within my circle… I don’t stand out and would much rather blend in and go unnoticed. Large groups of people scare the life out of me. I do much better alone or with a few close friends. Everyone seems to know my name, but more likely than not I will stare at you blankly, trying to...
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I take a moment, look deep within
I’m unlike anyone else
but I can’t give you the answer
as to why.
As I look up at the sky
the tears start to fall
freely, so freely, can’t stop.
Why can’t I be myself… myself?
Here it comes, I feel the rain on me
refreshing, yet numbing
the power to wash it all away
for a moment.
It stops just as quickly
back to reality...
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Darkness falls, shapeless form disdainful whispers, gently caresses my ear taunting, almost too much to endure Show yourself A hiss betrays itself and folds its corners in the ink stained night curves over your face, naturally, tenderly but feels so ugly, so using, so false. Tips of vibrations shape fingers, the body’s venom into a palm, splits, clones and falls to your chest. “Right here” the...
Finally Free!! Sort Of
Done! Four whole days where I don’t have to worry about the amount of sleep I get, couldn’t be more excited!! :D
A Crow Painted White.: Darkness falls, shapeless... →
flyhecried:
Darkness falls, shapeless form Disdainful whispers, gently caresses my ear Taunting, almost too much to endure Show yourself
A hiss betrays itself and folds its corners in the ink stained night curves over your face, naturally, tenderly but feels so ugly, so using, so false. Tips of…
Unable to breath, suffocating
I try to escape, tripping over the memories that haunt,...
Darkness falls, shapeless form
Disdainful whispers, gently caresses my ear
Taunting, almost too much to endure
Show yourself
I need an idea...
It will pretty dead at work today and I would like to work on something to fill the time. Any suggestions for a theme?
Poetry.
poeticpersistence:
Actions speak louder
than words? I guess you have yet
to meet a poet..
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Oh sleepless nights, how I loath thee! As I finally start to fade away, the sound of the alarm, screaming at me to get up, halts it to a dead stop. I reluctantly drag myself from my warm bed into the freezing air to start the long day.
Well it’s two in the morning, going to “try” and sleep… last day of work tomorrow before the holidays! Yay!!! Goodnight, morning, or whatever time zone you’re in :) x
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If what they say is true
To every good tale
There’s usually a beginning
And then there’s the end
I’ve been the one to walk in
Sometimes I would walk out
I have opened up my heart
But now it closed itself down
I tried everything to change it
Done everything to contain it
But I don’t see any other possibilities
But I know that it will all work out
“I’m in love!” my heart will want to shout
But...
Hmmm, after writing all day, you would think I would be able to shut it off now… apparently not :/
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Work in progress...
I walk aimlessly, no clear direction and
my destination is not important as long as
I can finally disappear
pace quickening, there’s a sense of urgency
to escape… alive.
Fear is building…
I can see the fear reflecting in a nearby
stream, if only it could wash away and
be taken to the unknown
along with everything else I try to hide
I can only… hope.
I am in pieces…
It is highlighted by the moons...
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Where are you now, as I try to sleep?
Why have you abandoned me?
My eyes you would cover so I could not see
My ears you would block so I could not hear
My heart you would freeze so I could not feel
My mind you would erase so I could not remember…
But I am not sleeping anymore
Alone again, spending my nights in self defence
My hand you no longer hold to guide me through
My body you no longer...